THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

They say in warmer days its easy to forget all your worries and miseries, and in cold season these worries and miseries seems to aggravate and eventually makes you feel all alone, worried and not in good shape to perform well. Lately things are happening out of hand in my situation, I am being a good daughter, trying hard to be the best they wanted me to be, a responsible daughter that they were hoping me to be, but lately my past actions years and years ago seems to hunt me, The nights were never easy, especially bed times when you are all alone and things come up in your mind, popping and continually starting to make you worried. Then here comes the time when WHAT IFs start to pop out on your mind..

I had said to most people I know that in my life I regret less and nevertheless I don't wish things was different. In the past few nights things were different from what i always say this time I wish things were different, there are things I wish I never did and decisions I never made but then again I felt like crying cause I know things would never happen if I weren't too stupid and think of the consequences that will happen. The pain I felt before made me an unlikely person for whoever who cares I became different those days. The one person who knew this is my best friend Aleth whom did the same thing as I did. Things I hope were different but it just wouldn't be. I just Pray that somehow people around me would start understanding me. I hope that they will see how I changed and matured through time.