THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

They say in warmer days its easy to forget all your worries and miseries, and in cold season these worries and miseries seems to aggravate and eventually makes you feel all alone, worried and not in good shape to perform well. Lately things are happening out of hand in my situation, I am being a good daughter, trying hard to be the best they wanted me to be, a responsible daughter that they were hoping me to be, but lately my past actions years and years ago seems to hunt me, The nights were never easy, especially bed times when you are all alone and things come up in your mind, popping and continually starting to make you worried. Then here comes the time when WHAT IFs start to pop out on your mind..

I had said to most people I know that in my life I regret less and nevertheless I don't wish things was different. In the past few nights things were different from what i always say this time I wish things were different, there are things I wish I never did and decisions I never made but then again I felt like crying cause I know things would never happen if I weren't too stupid and think of the consequences that will happen. The pain I felt before made me an unlikely person for whoever who cares I became different those days. The one person who knew this is my best friend Aleth whom did the same thing as I did. Things I hope were different but it just wouldn't be. I just Pray that somehow people around me would start understanding me. I hope that they will see how I changed and matured through time.

< Most of all the gossip girl fan out there might love or hate "Blair Waldorf" but who wouldn't know her at all, Portrayed by Leighton Meester "Blair Waldorf" Is a rich, classy and spoiled brat Upper east sider In new york who lives with all the wealth and glamour together with her co UES a.k.a. bestfriend Serena.

Ever since I started watching my favorite american series "Gossip girl" Leighton has always caught my attention with her simple and classy look, her style is so surprisingly nice for a 20 year old woman. Her style was so nice because of her being brunette matches up her classy look. Let me share to you some of her photos with her nice style with fashion..












Hope to get some style guide through her photos..I just adore her!!

lately I been friends with ladies who are having so much stress with their husbands who happen to have other woman, and then I asked myself if this things really co-exist with marriage? are this things comes to a relationship??

Why is it that for some woman it is so easy to have relationship with a married man? is it more exciting? or is it the danger of being caught excites them? I wonder.. if being an other woman is easy in filipino word "KABIT". I guess not cause I've seen my granny and mom whom at some point in their life got hurted because of this so called "KABIT". For me its not a relationship at all, not even love, maybe lust I guess! Still I pity those who are on the position of being an other woman, I pity them because they have to claim something that does not even belong to her.

I'll leave one piece of advise to those who are "KABIT"
AND HERE IT GOES:
no matter how happy you are in a "relationship" but if your ruining someones life you better back off cause there is no way you can be fully happy if you insist on something that is not meant to be yours. Find somebody who can give you the gift of a title of being a wife not just merely being a lover. Lust is not love at all, it is a chemistry between to people who has urge in sex and that is not love at all.

Happy birthday sis! I know that this came alittle late in my blog, you know i hardly get a chance to open the computer for quite sometime now.. I am wishing you all the happiness in life! every joy you deserve! you know that ate will always be here for you! as I told you.."you and me against the world" we'll stick for each other! now that your already a "dalaga" and youre matured now i hope you focus with your studies and be the best that you are! show everyone how good you are! love you sis! have a happy year! Happy birthday! mhuaaww !(much love - ate)

Just wanna share to my readers what I've read a while ago about my birth sign..

Personal Traits
Aquarians are interesting and attractive people. They can be shy, sensitive, gentle and patient or enthusiastic and lively with a tendency to be exhibitionists. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their own way. Very opinionated with strong convictions, they fight for what they believe in. They will argue vehemently for what they believe to be true.
These are farsighted people and innovative. They are generally without prejudice and quite tolerant of the point of view of others. They have an interesting side to their nature that allows them to see a valid argument even when they disagree with it. They are quite objective folk and never get waylaid by being too close to an issue or person.
Aquarius is truly a humane, human being. Known to be frank and outspoken, Aquarius makes for a serious and genial companion. Refined and idealistic, romantic but practical, they are personable and likable people.
Quick in mind and quick to respond, Aquarians love activity and are quite reasonable, though difficult to get close to. They cherish and guard their independence, and are a strange mixture of caring concern and cool detachment. They will go out of their way to help when needed, but never get involved emotionally.

Positive Traits
Aquarians are usually intelligent, cool, clear, logical people. They have good imaginations and are quite intuitive. Aquarius is drawn to and inspired by great causes.They are not limited to their environment and disappointments don't deter them from their goals. They often adopt a life style that goes against the trends, because the odd and unique fascinate them.
Whether the retiring or the outgoing Aquarian, both types appreciate opportunities to be alone. They enjoy their own company and are recharged by this quiet time. Rarely content being followers, they are more often society's trend setters. They do not take kindly to interference by others, even if it is well intended. Most Aquarians appreciate beauty and balance, possessing an excellent sense of aesthetics. This is often expressed by interests that can span drama, music, art, and science.
Main postive traits: Progressive, independent, inventive, friendly, humaitarian, originality.

Negative Traits Aquarians are an enigma. On one hand they are warm, kind, and outgoing, the sort to make friends easily and willingly. On the other hand, they are quite aloof people, who do not actively seek out relationships, and resent any infringement on their time or resources. They are engaging, yet unreachable. They can be fascinating and dynamic, while lacking any real warmth or endearing qualities.
Among the faults, which are typically Aquarian, are extreme eccentricity, and an unwillingness to participate in any standard of protocol. When angered, they become seriously rude, alternating between deafening silence and sudden outbursts of temper.
Main negative traits: Unemotional, aloof, tempermental, unpreditable, eccentric, fixed opinions.
Profession
Aquarians work best in group projects, but must be recognized as having a leading role. They make excellent researchers and admirable scientists, especially astronomers and natural historians. They may lead the field in photography, computer technology, Radiography or electronics .Aviation is also a natural vocation for Aquarians
In the arts and humanities, their progressive talents are expressed well in writing, particularly poetry, and in broadcasting. In the theater, they make good character actors, and are natural mimics. Possessing an affinity for rhythm and timing, many Aquarians make fine and progressive musicians. In the service fields, they can be effective welfare workers or educators.

Lucky Stone:Amethyst A form of quartz, with a silicon dioxide composition is Amethyst. The majority of quartz samples are clear, but amethyst derives it's beautiful purple appearance due to small amounts of iron impurities in the crystal lattice.
Advice for the Aquarians In the midst of a crusade they can be so completely devoted, that they drive themselves to the edge of complete exhaustion. This trait can be disheartening to those near and dear.
Quite capable of sustained anger and hard feelings, they should tune out the perceived offender, and retreat to their own private world. If they overcame their sensitiveness and developed their will power then there is no position in life that they coul;d not attain.Aquarians ar likely to suffer from disorders of stomach and eyes.
Origins in Mythology To fully appreciate the mythological significance of Aquarius, it is necessary to bear in mind the importance of water to our ancestors. The very existence of the ancients depended upon the supply of life sustaining moisture. During the month of Aquarius, the rains were on the land, literally poured from the heavens. In many regions of the ancient world, this was seen as the beginning the new year, a time of new life cycles. It is not hard to understand why some images depict the figure of Aquarius as a water bearing angel or other divine being.
The region of the night sky in which Aquarius resides is populated by water signs. In Babylonia, this region of the zodiac was known as the Sea.To the Greeks, Aquarius was associated with Ganymede, the son of Tros, king of Phrygia. The god Zeus, so admired the boy's beauty that, disguised as an eagle, he abducted him to serve as cup bearer on mount Olympus. It was this desire to possess the young prince which inspired Zeus to cast his image eternally in the night sky.
Famous Aquarians François Rabelais (February 10, 1491) French Humorist Author Sir Francis Bacon (February 1, 1561) English Scientific Philosopher Christopher Marlowe(February 6, 1564) English Poet, Playwright Emanuel Swedenborg (February 8, 1688) Swedish Scientist, Philosopher, Theologian Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (January 27, 1756) Austrian Composer Robert Burns (January 25, 1759) Scottish Poet Lord Byron (January 22, 1788) English Poet Henry W. Longfellow (February 7, 1807) American Poet Charles Darwin (February 12, 1809) English Naturalist Author Abraham Lincoln (February 12, 1809) American President Charles Dickens (February 7, 1812) English Novelist: Great Expectations, Oliver Twist John Ruskin (February 8, 1819) English Author, Art Critic Jules Verne (February 8, 1828) French Science Fiction Novelist Edouard Manet (January 23, 1832) French Painter Lewis Carroll (January 27, 1832) English Author Thomas Alva Edison (February 11, 1847) American Inventor Franklin Delano Roosevelt (January 30, 1882) American President Charles Lindbergh (February 4, 1902) American Aviator, First to cross the Atlantic Ocean Christian Dior (January 21, 1905) French Fashion Designer Ronald Reagan (February 6, 1911) American President Toni Morrison (February 18, 1931) American Nobel Author Oprah Winfrey (January 29, 1954) American Talk show Hostess, Actress Bridget Fonda (January 27, 1964) American Actress

When you're young you want to try everything and become outrageously successful in life. You tend to try different things that you think you would wanted for yourself. RISK is not a challenge for you instead it was one of your favorite choice of decision. When you're young its either you jump or you jump and fall or fall. You are very sure of what you are doing, no what if's and no alternate routes.Everything is in positive moods for you, you see life larger than anyone and most of all you see life a head of you positively.

But when does this all ends? When does being a risk taker become a cautious person?]

When people grow and achieve greater things or failed at most they tend to learn things and began changing there prospective in life. People become very cautious on the things they do in life, they seek many opinions and many alternative routes to go through and most of this are the safe ways those things that they can see clearly. Why is that people stop becoming the person they are when they go through things?

I could never exclude myself from all these things, and I couldn't blame myself for being cautious after all that I've been through. Still I'm young but I become the person I was talking about.

I woke up one day realizing most of the things that I want and how I want it to be, but I stopped and think of the negative possibilities that could happen or the problems that I will be facing through all these but after all the thoughts I had I realized that This is me! I should do what would make me happy and what would make me feel that I am me and that I am who I am supposed to be. I realized that I have to stop standing on the same place and start walking, I can see crystal clear now that theres no easy way its either I jump or I jump! There's no alternate route to success.. This is me and I'm returning to who I really am!


This was the first risk I did and a part of finding the woman in me.
well I just cut my hair after a long time of having it long..

I know I've been absent in blogging for a while..

I hate to admit it but lately was a very hectic month for me!

whoahh.. cant believe that I actually surpass that month long of sched. well, maybe because that month long was both about working hard and having fun at the same time. Well here are the updates of the recent happenings In my life.

July..

My Tito Pen and cousin Karen arrived from U.S and the whole month was a bunch of fun and family bonding.. here are some of the pictures we had during those days:
at Enchanted kingdom





most of the time it was about movie marathon and other stuffs that involves laughing and being together as a family. I just love those days. I love seeing my family that way. I hope that One day we'll all end up being together for a long time.


P.S. for more pictures visit my facebook account..