THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

As the last 20 years of my life I celebrate january 19 with greetings of happy birthday day to my lola and spending most of the time of my day with her. Today its a different case, whether I like it or not I seem to have no choice at all, I couldn't spend my day hugging her and singing her happy birthday song. This is the first time in my life that my lola is not around to celebrate her birthday with us. I really miss her a lot and how I wish that she's still here. The moments I spend with her will always be treasured. Supposedly today is her 69th birthday but she wasn't able to be here anymore. Today I made sure that I will be so busy that I would forget the pain that I always have since the day we lost her. It is the first time that we didn't have her during he holidays and specially now that its her special day. I attended my duty at 8 o'clock in the morning at Fugoso Health Center, I was the one assigned at the admission table, It was a hard job though I really enjoy entertaining and assessing patient's health status and major complaints. I was wearing my Community development shirt which not most of my classmates were able to have since there are no stocks at the school anymore. After the duty, me and my duty mates went to grab something to eat and had a really nice lunch talking and chatting bout everything under the sun. It was nice because most of my duty mates are jibing the same personality that I have. I went home and wash up for kuya ferdie's funeral in the afternoon. The funeral march started about 2 in the afternoon and walk its way to Sto. Nino church, we waited there for about one and a half hour. Then headed back to franco straight to North cemetery it was there last time to bid kuya fedie goodbye and pray for his peace in heaven. Me,my mom and dad, nanay sila and tita mae went to visit nanay. I couldn't help myself when I said to myself happy birthday nanay, I cried and that triggered my headache. I ended up my day tired, wounded with emotional pain of missing my lola, headache, and loneliness.