THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

The moment a father first carried her baby girl comes certain fears any father would probably felt. The fear that one day her baby would never be as sweet to her as she was, that her smiles would not be for him anymore, and that one day they will have different opinions on things and that this differences will break them apart,that one day she'll learn to get angry with him, and worst of all, that one day her baby girl would grow up.

Admit it or not most of us probably felt the same way when it comes to "father and daughter relationship" My relationship with my father way back when I was a child was really something special. It felt like he's the closest thing I have aside from my mom. It's easy to approach him and hug him, kiss him when I was younger! We always sit in the bed watch tv, I remember he thought me how to count numbers form 1 to 100,lol, I was only 3 yrs old but I have to deal with lots of numbers, but even though I still enjoyed counting numbers because I did it with him. God knows how I miss those little things that I spent with him. The simple talks and serious laughing and hugs are my constant reminder before of how good life can be..

Then one day.. I woke up, I was not a baby anymore. I was becoming a teenager, and certain misunderstandings on how I live my life breaks me and my father apart. We hardly knew each other. He was becoming the man I never thought he was. He had set certain rules that are hitting me and my immature mind. Being a teenager,is being a person who is hungry for freedom. From her sweet baby girl I was more likely becoming a rebel child for my father. I break every rules possible, I don't listen, I Speak what I want, and do what I want. During those times I don't get what they are trying to say about "right time" all I thought back then is that I have to do it now or never. This attitude of mine made me and my father almost a stranger in our home. We don't even talk and all we do is quarrel and have fights about waht I do with myself. When your a teenager you don't see anything wrong about doing anything, but for a father everything should go the way he planned. As I said their greatest fear is her baby growing up.

Now I'm not a baby anymore nor a teenager, I am young woman, who realized that having a father is one of the most greatest thing a person could have. Me and papa so far are not always in good terms because again as I said father fears of seeing her baby grow up and loosing her by by time hits him. I understand my papa now for being stick and all that dictatorship thing he did to me when I was younger. It was for me, for my goodness and nothing else. I miss my papa so much, I hope that one day we'll get the same way back when I was 3..

Last time I was talking about planning on having my regular exercise to make myself fit and build better confidence out of me. Yesterday good to say I finally stated my exercise, it was 3 minutes cardio exercise and stretching, I don't force myself to strenuous exercise because I might get lazy again over it.During the morning today I did a 1 hour exercise. Truly exercise have lots of benefits for all of us, one of the benefits I noticed on myself is the effect it gives on my mood. A 30 minute short exercise boost my mood for the day,even today honestly I feel like more energize than I am when all I did is sleep and watch TV.

Hope I can stay this way regularly!

One on the list of my goals is to get fit this summer. I am planning to have a reise to stay fit and healthy. I was thinking of going to the gym to have cardio exercises and crunches to make my belly stomach flat and just to stay healthy,well partly my main purpose is to make my body sexier..lol to me for that reason. I been wanting a body with curves though I know frankly that I have those, I just want to make it better and sexier. Wish me luck on sustaining my ll on achieving this, I know this won't easy Specially that I'll be attending school this summer I am hoping for a good result the end of summer.
Wish me luck!!

So here comes summer..

A time of the year where most people have been waiting for. Vacation comes mostly in this season. Time to bring out the summer clothes and get ready to party. Swim! swim! swim! Get ready to show those tans and sexy curves this summer.I am guessing that this summer would be a very different summer for most people not just because the heat of the sun is more intense than the past years but also because election would also take place this summer.

This summer I would be attending school..Oh God I hate nursing! LOL i have to required subjects to take this summer, so I guess it isn't a vacation for me after all. Still summer is summer and I'm sure to have lots of fun this coming summer. hmm.. I thought of my past summer loves, yeah to that summer love for it always last only till vacation. Hope you guys have a happy summer! See you on the beach..

And so another sem ends.. makes me feel good for I know that sooner I'll be graduating. Well all I have to do is study as much I could to achieve everything that I want.. Good thing everything was settled before my final examination. I think I would pass.lol speaking about being positive. I just hope things would go perfectly fine soon!! No more worries for me for now, Cause I know I would be enjoying my vacation..and it officially starts now!!!!

Happy Summer guys!!!

To let you all know here are some updates of the recent happenings in my life for the past days that I've been not blogging:

During the month of FEBRUARY where in we all know the "love month" I get to receive lots of love from everyone else including someone I met about 3years ago. From the very start of our acquiantance back then I already know his good intentions for me, He even ask permission to my mom if he can introduced his self to me. He's someone I know that has good heart and good intentions, I never had a chance to gave him a chance before because of clouded mind, I admit for the past years I was immature, but recently I though of gicing him a chance, well, it seems not that way I should say things just happen, serendipity. I was not expecting him to come back into my life. Just recently he showed up again and we had talks and chit chats " a little conversation I turn it into visions of forever and wereting sweeter everytime, I can't pretend that I'm just a friend coz I'm thinking maybe we were meant to be, I think I'm falli' fallin in love with you, and I dont know what to do" I was feeling this song during those times. He sent me flowers during the valentines, suprisingly it was him who sent me those cute flowers I got.Honestly he was one the most nicest guy I ever met! The nicest thing about the month february except for my bday was the Intramurals wherein I got the time to spent with my friends, Even though most of my times are spent on school I really miss my friends since we have different schedules and different priorities but that week we get to spend quality time wit each other and here are some of the pictures we had during the week
my classmates during the cheer competition
with apol and ponser after the parade
with ponser

It was the same month last year that I was so happy and enjoying school when something unexpected happened.. The first day of march will always be as painful as it is way back last year,Because this is the day I lost the most special person in my life and that is nanay bada. I did not expect my day to be as busy as I was in the past couple of days but I was doing good that day because I had a way to foget everything i have in mind, i made myself as busy as much as possible to forget the pain. I thought everything would went out just as okay as I expected, but I was wrong during the dawn of march 2 I lost my grandfather, the following dayafter the 1 yr death anniversary f nanay. We lost him as he said to us that he will be leaving soon, but we all though that this was just his way to tell us that nanay's death anniversary is coming. We were all not shock about this, instead we thank the Lord for this, because we all know thar dear tatay is suffering greatly in pain, and we cannot bear to see him in that condition. We knew that very moment that nanay had called him to be her together with the Lord. It was honestly relieving to our family knowing that Tatay and nanay is now with our Lord.

In the meantime during those times I am really having difficulty with my decisions about my personal life, I am confused and very much not at ease with my self. But I am hoping to be happy soon. Since vacation is about to come I'm sure to have good times this coming summer..

Until next blog guys..

Yes!you read it right after 3 weeks of not updating my blog, well I'm back on business. I haven't been updating my blog lately because of some personal reasons involving my prioritize in life. Its not that there's nothing new to talk about cause actually there's always something hot to talk about. Theres lot of news I did not update this blog and today I'm about to share it to all of you.

I should admit that I did not update my blog because of many reasons, I been very stubborn about keeping myself my problems involving myself, Plus I been depressed lately because of my grandfather who is terminally ill during the last 2 weeks of February and me having troubles about my love life. I admit that most of the problems that I encountered for the past month and the first two weeks of march are mostly because of my own mistakes. I been making decisions that are both unreasonable and wrong. I been too depressed to think about my blog..sorry everyone!!

From this day on I promise to make it up for the past weeks that I had been necting my blogging! and this I assure you guys!! mhwuaahh!