THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

The moment a father first carried her baby girl comes certain fears any father would probably felt. The fear that one day her baby would never be as sweet to her as she was, that her smiles would not be for him anymore, and that one day they will have different opinions on things and that this differences will break them apart,that one day she'll learn to get angry with him, and worst of all, that one day her baby girl would grow up.

Admit it or not most of us probably felt the same way when it comes to "father and daughter relationship" My relationship with my father way back when I was a child was really something special. It felt like he's the closest thing I have aside from my mom. It's easy to approach him and hug him, kiss him when I was younger! We always sit in the bed watch tv, I remember he thought me how to count numbers form 1 to 100,lol, I was only 3 yrs old but I have to deal with lots of numbers, but even though I still enjoyed counting numbers because I did it with him. God knows how I miss those little things that I spent with him. The simple talks and serious laughing and hugs are my constant reminder before of how good life can be..

Then one day.. I woke up, I was not a baby anymore. I was becoming a teenager, and certain misunderstandings on how I live my life breaks me and my father apart. We hardly knew each other. He was becoming the man I never thought he was. He had set certain rules that are hitting me and my immature mind. Being a teenager,is being a person who is hungry for freedom. From her sweet baby girl I was more likely becoming a rebel child for my father. I break every rules possible, I don't listen, I Speak what I want, and do what I want. During those times I don't get what they are trying to say about "right time" all I thought back then is that I have to do it now or never. This attitude of mine made me and my father almost a stranger in our home. We don't even talk and all we do is quarrel and have fights about waht I do with myself. When your a teenager you don't see anything wrong about doing anything, but for a father everything should go the way he planned. As I said their greatest fear is her baby growing up.

Now I'm not a baby anymore nor a teenager, I am young woman, who realized that having a father is one of the most greatest thing a person could have. Me and papa so far are not always in good terms because again as I said father fears of seeing her baby grow up and loosing her by by time hits him. I understand my papa now for being stick and all that dictatorship thing he did to me when I was younger. It was for me, for my goodness and nothing else. I miss my papa so much, I hope that one day we'll get the same way back when I was 3..