THE SEARCH OF A YOUNG WOMAN

I was thinking of not using the computer for today but I just can't resist the call of my computer so I decided to sit here for a while and update my social networking. For today I'm planning nothing but to finish my review on nutritional needs of a pregnant woman and be on the tv on the same time, I been waiting all week for "dear friend" because of Tj trinidad and Rhian Ramos, and I saw it in the commercial and it seems to me that it has a good story outline in it. I'm not an a fan of tj trinidad before but I like the way he appeals on the screen lately and for Rhian Ramos I really like her sweet face and her pore less flawless skin..I'm being a lesbian lol!! I really appreciate beautiful ladies you see.. But I'm absolutely no lesbian lol! So I guess I gotta go for now.. and till next blog!!

Feeling tired all day but did nothing except for bumming, sleeping, watching tv and movie marathons are so over.. Finally I woke up today feeling energize again, well.. my prayers did work!! I am finally back to my own self!! I just realized a last night before I sleep that I couldn't just stay here at home all my life, I should make the best out of myself while I'm young, the time runs faster than we are so I should better get on my feet and set my priorities, I know that I could make both ends meet, and I wont give up on that!! I been so good girl lately with other people except myself, I've been depriving myself of the benefits of being a young woman and of learning different things everyday. I come to realize that I am being lazy because I am starting to get bored of my life, as I've said in my last blog I been very tired of my my everyday routine and that is true, but I already thought of a way to make each day of my life productively amazing. Plus I read about my cousins suggestions to my laziness lately and I superv love the suggestion she gave me and plan to include these things in my to do list. I realized and thought that I am the one who could make my day different from the other days. I know I been so lazy the whole week because of boredom and My feeling of wanting to do something else unrelated to my course, It's like I wanna learn different things everyday, that is why starting today I'm planning to have my daily to do task wherein I would try to learn different things each day and make up the best out of my youth, I am young, and full of energy and I should not waste this opportunity, so I would not deprive myself anymore of the benefits of a young woman and bring out the best out of me!! Today I am planning to go back to my review and read my books on maternal and child care nursing, do the laundry (which doesn't require much effort because of our automatic washing machine!! lol) and later after that I think I'll be sitting in front of my desk thinking of things to do the next few days..ciao for now!!!

Can anyone suggest to me a medz that would keep me up all week!? I BEEN LAZY THE WHOLE WEEK AND FELT SO TIRED OF DOING THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER AGAIN EVERYDAY! I can't really sort out my feelings, I been this way since last week.. I don't even know if it's my laziness or just my worries that makes me lazy the whole time.. I know that my worries are eating my enegy to go to school plus I'm getting realy tired of going to the same things everyday, This weeks duty was another factor that stressed me.. It'd like I'm in the middle of no where, and all I wanna do is to stay where I am cause I am blindfolded with fears and doubts of how to make it. WHEWW.. I just wish and pray that I could cross the bridge before my birthday, cause I know that I'm not getting any younger and I should choose my decisions well.. Lord, pls.. take all my worries away and I lift up all this unto you, Be with my side please.. Later today after lunch I'll be attending classes which I'm getting tired of..!

Yesterday I attended my cousin's wedding at San sebastian church and the reception followed at Quezon city sports club together with my family. It was indeed a very memorable day for the couple. Tita emmy was crying for her only daughter..I think she's not yet ready to give ate khristine to her groom.lol. While in the ceremony, I thought of how I like my wedding to be, I always dream of getting married just like any other girls who dreams to be a princess who will finally be wed to his prince charming. I don't know if its the ambiance of the wedding yesterday that made me feel dreaming of getting married someday or its just any other girls dream. Still I am just starting to enjoy being a young adult, single and no commitments at all.. well of course I am in a happy relationship right now with my boyfriend which I have no regrets at all. Then I wonder.. is wedding an opening door to happiness or just a way to much more complications. Way back when I was younger than I am now, I always thought that being a housewife and a career woman would be a great idea and that having someone to be with you all the way would be nice, but when I grew older, in the present I am much thinking and realizing that marriage is a sacrifice, wherein you would say "I do" to all the commitments, hardships, understanding, acceptance, and complications! as said in the movie ghost of my girlfriends past that "Marriage is archaic and oppressive institution that should been abolish hundreds of years ago,that love is a magical comfort food of the weak and uneducated, It makes you all warm and relevant but in the end, love leaves you weak, dependent and fat".i AM NOT MERELY AFRAID OF FALLING IN LOVE AND INVESTING EMOTIONS TO SOMEONE which I am doing rght now, Its just the marriage that strucks me. But I think when you love someone doubt is really not possible, and that all yours fears will be gone. Thanks to you loves all my fears are gone cause I know that we'll walk together and stick for each other. here are some of the pictures taken during the wedding I am the lady in white, white lady.. hehe Me and my sister Jasper kulit and me me, papa and my sister almost like grown ups kuya richard,me and nicca my family Me and Arnicca Just me..

Had a very nice morning to afternoon with my mom and sister, shop till we drop! we had our brunch together and walk again shop. It was a nice a day preparing for ate ten-ten's wedding tomorrow. The dress that I bought was really nice and I love the color of the pouch bad that mama bought for me, the wallet was also nice, I just hope I'll be lucky with this wallet this time!! lol! later we'll be going to the parlor. Me, my mom and my sister coordinates and enjoy this kind of stuffs which usually my dad doesn't understand why we ahev to be like this!! vain!!! vanity!! hehe.. goota go! till next blog..

Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Rush! Talking about cramming and running late, this morning I woke up late for my duty and rush to Fugoso health center. Upon arrival I hurried to fix myself and sited straightly to the front desk. The patients were on great number and I was rushing to attend to their needs. I admitted and interviwed almost 40 patients in just two hours. I was overwhelmed when I realized that I did almost 40 assessment and diagnosis to that great number of patients. My group mates told me that I did a great job and I was so happy hearing this!! Honestly my life as a student nurse is really tiring, from long hours of lectures and classes to late night shift of duties or early morning duties.. It is all tiring and forces me to bring out all the best that I have. The fact that I am still young is an advantage, cause it means I have greter source of energy pockets reserved on my body. My stress level is always higher than the usual lately, but I am really enjoying what I'm doing and I am looking forward to learn more. I really hope that sooner I could be better and help a lot of people. I think I would never grow tired of this job!! So much cramming for today.. My day ended well. since I have no more classes for today I think I'll be saving my time resting and sleeping for a long day tomorrow!

As the last 20 years of my life I celebrate january 19 with greetings of happy birthday day to my lola and spending most of the time of my day with her. Today its a different case, whether I like it or not I seem to have no choice at all, I couldn't spend my day hugging her and singing her happy birthday song. This is the first time in my life that my lola is not around to celebrate her birthday with us. I really miss her a lot and how I wish that she's still here. The moments I spend with her will always be treasured. Supposedly today is her 69th birthday but she wasn't able to be here anymore. Today I made sure that I will be so busy that I would forget the pain that I always have since the day we lost her. It is the first time that we didn't have her during he holidays and specially now that its her special day. I attended my duty at 8 o'clock in the morning at Fugoso Health Center, I was the one assigned at the admission table, It was a hard job though I really enjoy entertaining and assessing patient's health status and major complaints. I was wearing my Community development shirt which not most of my classmates were able to have since there are no stocks at the school anymore. After the duty, me and my duty mates went to grab something to eat and had a really nice lunch talking and chatting bout everything under the sun. It was nice because most of my duty mates are jibing the same personality that I have. I went home and wash up for kuya ferdie's funeral in the afternoon. The funeral march started about 2 in the afternoon and walk its way to Sto. Nino church, we waited there for about one and a half hour. Then headed back to franco straight to North cemetery it was there last time to bid kuya fedie goodbye and pray for his peace in heaven. Me,my mom and dad, nanay sila and tita mae went to visit nanay. I couldn't help myself when I said to myself happy birthday nanay, I cried and that triggered my headache. I ended up my day tired, wounded with emotional pain of missing my lola, headache, and loneliness.